Mother’s Day

Today is my first Mother’s Day as a mama.

I honestly didn’t know how I would feel about today. I spent so many years hiding away at home, avoiding social media and generally getting shitfaced – because today was another colossal reminder of another year without a child, another failed treatment cycle, another ‘maybe next year’ that hadn’t showed up.

It was a day where I would spend most of it in tears.

Finally, here we are with a little one and another kicking away in my stomach. Nothing fancy; some lovely little gifts and a day with my girls. But it’s exactly what I wanted.

I hold her a little tighter today, so immensely grateful for her being here.